12/11/06: HEY ITS ME ROBERT AGAIN. THE REASON THAT I AM TYPING HERE IS BECAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED MY JOURNAL OFF OF CHRIS’S COMPUTER. NEEDLESS TO SAY I HAVE TO GATHER ALL OF THAT INFORMATION BACK FROM THE CONFINDS OF THE MIND THAT IS MINE AND I DON’T HAVE TO HAE JAZZ BUGGING ME ABOUT TRYING TO MODIFY MY JOURNAL AMYMORE. THEN AGAIN THAT IS THE BEAUTY OF IT ALL AND I HAVE NO WAY OF PEOPLE TRYING TO GET INTO MY ACCOUNT ANYMORE. THE ONLY BAD THING ABOUT IT ALL IS THAT WHEN THIS GIRL COMES INTO MY PERIOD 2 CLASS SHE IS ALWAYS LOOKING AT MY COMPUTER TO MAKE SURE THAT IM NOT LOOKING FOR A WAY TO COMMIT SUICIDE. THEN AGAIN I REALLY DON’T CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO THESE PEOPLE IN THIS SCHOOL. I AM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO MAKE THE FONT IN THE OTHER VIEW INTO THIS COMPUTER LIKE ON CHRIS’S COMPUTER AT HIS HOUSE. ANYWAYS I THINK THAT STEPHANIE STILL HATES ME BECAUSE I WAS GOING TO STAY AFTER SCHOOL FOR A DETENTION TODAY AND THEN GO TO DDR CLUB BUT SHE WASN’T GONNA. SO I THINK THAT THE CHANCES THAT I HAD WITH HER ARE COMPLEATLEY GONE FOR NOW. OR UNTIL SHE BREAKS UP WITH ETHAN. SPEAKING OF WHICH I APOLOIGIZED TO HIM LAST THURSDAY AND HE SAID WHATEVER LIKE I HAD STABBED HIM IN THE BACK A COUPLE OF DAYS AHEAD OF TIME. THEN AGAIN I DID BECAUSE STEPH FOUND OUT WHAT I SAID ABOUT HIM THINKING OF HER OF ONLY AS A QUICK FUCK AND THEN LEAVING HER. OOPS I HAVE TO GO SOON. I’LL TALK TO YOU AT PERIOD 2 TOMORROW. BYE FOR NOW.
12/15/06: Goddamn I am the happiest person alive today. Yeah I know I’m not in caps lock today. But I am happy because I got a girlfriend and I can’t mention names because there is a person in my presence that tries to look at my journal every time she gets a chance. But in any event I get to go to the movies today with Darin, Brittany, and Susan today. And probably I am gonna wind up sleeping over Darin’s house today because I haven’t seen him in a while (more like 2 ½ months) but Susan might wind up sleeping over as well so we’ll
Play some uno and spin the bottle. Fuck now I really am begging to hate my day because I am playing instant messenger over 2 computers and it is really getting heated. I’ll talk later. Bye.
Pt2: hey I have some fucked up news: Stephanie found out that I’m going out with Susan and so did Suhair (her name shouldn’t even be mentioned in my journal at all) because she overheard me talking to Katie in social studies class so I really don’t know what the hell is going on today. I think that I am sleeping over Darin’s house today and I guess that’s gonna be it. Needless to say, Susan found out that I liked her yesterday over the phone and I was talking to her for about an hour and a half then I finally told her and she was so surprised that she was speechless about it. Then to make things even weirder she told me that for the past 3 months that she liked me to and then I was speechless from that point on for the rest of the day. I have this gut instinct that this relationship will go on for a while. By the way when Stephanie found out the news, odds are that she told Ethan and she wont talk to me with a straight face anymore. But I don’t care about it. If she wants to fuck up her life then she can, because we will be the ones that said, “I told you so”. And it is likely that Ethan will wind up screwing her and she is gonna have a kid at the age of 15 years old. Hell she will be the youngest mother next to Alene. That’s some bullshit if I don’t have a say in It. Anyways I have to stop now because I really don’t have much else to type except that I hope that I have a good time at the movies tonight. I will update on Monday. See ya later. Bye.
12/18/06: HEY I’M BACK IN CAPS LOCK AND I HAD THE BEST TIME ON FRIDAY EXCEPT THAT SUSAN DIDDNT GET TO SLEEPOVER BRIT’S HOUSE. SO I SAW AND TALKED TO HER ON SUNDAY WHEN ME, SUSAN AND BRITTANY WENT TO THE MALL AND GUESS WHO WE SEE: WE SEE MY SISTER CARMELA ALONG WITH MY NIECE, CHNOA AND MY NEPHEW, DJ. HTEN WE SEE JASON VEGA (J.V.) AND DUSTIN A.K.A POTHEAD. HTEN WE WHERE GOING TO GO TO SUSANS HOUSE BUT HER PARENTS WENT OUT DRINKING AT THEIR FRIENDS HOUSE AND WE ALL KNEW THAT THEY WERENT ABLE TO GIVE US A RIDE HOME AFTRE THEY DRINK. SHE VOUCHES FOR THEM. BUT I TRY NOT TO MAKE FUN OF OTHER FAMILIES PARENTS EXCEPT FOR DARINS FAMILY. THEN I HAD TO PLAN OUT MY B-DAY FOR THIS YEAR. SINCE I CAN’T HAVE MY B-DAY ON THE DAY IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE ON, I HAVE TO SETTLE FOR DECEMBER 30TH 2006. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I AM GOING TO LASERQUEST AND I AM NOT HAVING 1 PERSON CHANGE MY MIND. EXCEPT FOR SUSAN AND GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT: I FOUND OU TTHAT SUHAIR LIKED ME IN FRESHEN YEAR HERE AT PLATT. I FOUND THIS OUT TODAYAND YOU DON’T KNOW HOW GROSSED OUT I WAS ABOUT THAT I ALMOST THREW UP IN CLASS IN MY DESK. THEN I FOUND OUT THAT SHE STILL LIKES ME MORE THAN A FRIEND WHEN I ALREADY HAVE A GIRLFRIEND (IT IS SUSAN IF YOU DIDN’T KNOW). AN DI TOLD SUSAN THIS AND SHE WENT CRAZY AND I ALMOST THREW UP AGAIN IN THE LIBRARY BEFORE THIS PERIOD STARTED. MY C.D. IS COPIED INTO THE SCHOOL COMPUTER RIGHT NOW AND IT IS A C.D. THAT SUSAN BOUGHT FOR ME FOR X-MAS AND I REALLY AM TRYING TO MAKE TO UP TO HER. NEDLESS TO SAY IT IS DARUDE A.K.A. THE ONLY PERSON WHO MADE SANDSTORM THE BEST TECHNO SONG IN THE WORLD AS FAR AS I KNOW. AND SU WAS GOING TO GET IT FOR ME FOR X-MAS. BUT SUSAN GOT IT BEFORE HER. I REALLY LOVE HER WITH ALL OF MY HEART. SHIT I GOTTA GO. LET ME SAVE BEFORE I GO: SAVED. I‘LL TALK LATER. BYE
12/19/2006: hey I’m back and yes I am in lowercase and I feel like shit because I feel like I got Susan in trouble yesterday because she didn’t take her cell phone to my house when her mom was trying to call her and tell her that she is coming to pick her up right then and nobody knew and boy was her mom swearing up a storm right in front of me, Chris, jazz, and her. I am copying my mix soundtrack that I got from Darin on Friday into the school computer now and after this I am going to materials class with Dan Pelrin and hopefully he doesn’t bust my balls today. And I know that Justin is because I didn’t get into school in time when he needed his project printed out for his senior essay. Fuck I am cold and I have to sit here waiting for time to tick by and get gray hair in my head. Hold on. Let me check if my c.d. is done…. 3 more tracks left to copy then it will be done. I really wish that I didn’t go with Amanda yesterday because her mom was a manic driver and I almost got run over then I saw Darin at Wal-Mart and he went nuts because he finally saw Amanda for the first time and he said “ that’s what you slept with that night” and I said “yeah, and I really regret it, man. I really regret it.” 1 more track and it is done. All I have to do is wait………still waiting. It is all copied and I still have to wait for it to pop out and I have 7 minutes to kill. Shit that’s not a lot of time. I gotta go. I’ll talk later. Bye
12/20/2006: Hey I think that I should go home but I don’t want to because I don’t want to miss the winter talent show because Susan is gonna be in it and she wanted me to see her. And I said that I can come to her house today and I don’t want to back out of a promise that I made. Needless to say if I can make it through the day rearranging my way and trying to make it to the D.D.R meeting today-while going to the show I will be perfect for the day. The reason that I have to go to D.D.R today instead of Thursday is because Mr. Ragis has a meeting tomorrow so he can’t do it then. Oh by the way, the reason that I want to go home is because I really don’t feel good and my stomach is killing me. So I am not going to go home because my sister will wonder why I’m home so early and then she will kick my ass. I had to print out a copy of my journal to a certain somebody (souhair) and I have to print out one every week so that way she will keep off of my back on trying to see it on the computer in front of everybody else. And I think that it’s a little fucked up that some people reject me now for going out with Susan and they think that I’m that desperate for a girlfriend. You know what I think; I say that they can go FUCK OFF, DIE, AND BURN IN HELL!!!!! Damnit I have to go now. I’ll talk to you later. Bye
12/21/2006: hey I am still sick in case you didn’t know. Then again I am still in lowercase. Hang on I have to switch computers… o.k. I’m done. Anyways I went to the winter concert for Susan and needless to say I really think that I didn’t do a very good job on an impression on her parents because I fell asleep during half the concert. I also have to watch what I say when I am typing in this journal because souhair read my journal and I think that I didn’t do a good job on that either because she was talking about it in English class yesterday and she seemed pretty pissed about it. So I have to look out for other things when I am typing. On the ride to susan’s house yesterday I really didn’t know where I was until I got to west Main Street near Hubbard Park. Then I knew where the hell I was. After I got there around eh lets say 3:30 I passed out on her bed and when I woke up an hour or so later, her sister and her girlfriend where looking at me. I really didn’t know what was going on at the time, but I found out that she is a little crazy and so is everyone else in her family. So I have to get rid on this cold before tomorrow otherwise I cant go over susans house because I really want to go over there again. I am now listening to sandstorm Terpsichord Remix by the one and only darude. The only problem is that I cant blast it because the people around me are gonna hear it and I cant hear all that well today because I am still sick. Fucknut colds. Goddamn it I really hate being sick. So this is the life that I am going to live everyday for the rest of my life with a few changes in the middle of it all. Shit I have to go I have 2 minutes left. I’ll talk later. Bye.
12/22/2006: HEY I’M BACK AND I AM FEELING MUCH BETTER THAN I WAS A FEW DAYS AGO AND YES I AM BACK IN CAPS LOCK. SO I AM GOING TO THE MOVIES TODAY WITH SUSAN, CHRIS AND POSSIBLY JAZZ. SO HOPEFULLY EVERYTHING WILL WORK OUT ALLRIGHT. I JUST HOPE THAT MY MOM GOT HER ASS UP TODAY AND CASHED HER CHECK TO GIVE ME SOME MONEY FOR THE MOVIES BECAUSE I OUE CHRIS SOME MONEY AND I PLAN ON PAYING IT BACK TO HIM IN MOVIES AND FOOD. IN ANY EVENT. I HAVE HAD AN OVERALL PRETTY PERFECT WEEK. NEEDLESS TO SAY THAT IS ALMOST PERFECT. THE ONLY THING THAT COULD MAKE THIS WEEK PERFECT TO IT’S FULLEST IS TO HAVE 1 THING HAPPEN AT THE MOVIES AND WE ALL KNOW WHAT THAT IS (NO IT ISNT SCREWING IN THE BATHROOM STALL). I HOPE YOU CAUGHT ON NOW AND IT WILL BE 1 OF THE MOST MEMORABLE MOMENTS OF MY LIFE. ASIDE FROM SOME OTHER THINGS THAT WILL SCAR ME FOR LIFE. AND I THINK THAT I AM GOING TO HAVE A LITLE BATTLE ROYALE IN NEE DFOR SPEED UNDERGROUND 2 AGAINST SUSAN, IF SHE IS UP FOR IT AND IF SHE ISNT SCARED TO GET BEATEN BY THE UNDERGROUND RULER AS MOST PEOPLE CALL ME OR “NFSUNLIMITEDGAMER” AS SEEN ON [link] AND I HAVE BEEN A RICER FOR THE PAST 4 MONTHS OR SO. BUT I THINK YOU ARE A RICER UNTIL YOU GET TO 300 POSTS. I ONLY HAVE 27-28 POSTS ON THE WEBSITE ITSELF. SO I HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO. OH BY THE WAY DID YOU KNOW… THAT IN JAPANESE THE WORD “SI” OVER THERE MEANS “SEX”? WEIRD HUH? HEE IS ANOTHER WEBSITE THAT WIL HELP WORK OUT YOUR FINGER SKILLS AND IMPROVE YOUR HAND EYE COORDINATION.HOLD ON…
[link]. O.K. THAT GAME IS A LITTLE ADDICTING AND IT IS ALITTLE AGGRAVITAING SO I WILL TALK LATER. BYE. GET THEM.
12/22/06: PT2 HEY I’M BACK AND I THINK THAT I HAVE TO GO TO SUSANS HOUSE RIGHT AFTER I GET HOME TODAY. BUT I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO TAKE THE CITY BUS THERE. IN OTHER WORDS: I TAKE THE B BUS TO THE TRAIN STATION AND THEN WAIT FOR THE C BUS TO GO TO WEST MAIN STREET THEN GET OFF AT CASTLE DRIVE TO GET TO HER PLACE. I’LL E THERE AROUND 3:45 4:00 MAYBE IF I’M LUCKY. LETS JUST HOPE FOR THE BEST POSSIBLE DAY TODAY AND THAT EVERYTHING GOES WELL. IF MY MOM GOT HER ASSUP TO GO CASH HER CHECK TODAY THEN I WILL HAVE SOME MONEY WAITIG FOR ME WHEN I GET HOME SO I DON’T HAETO GO TO THE MOVIES BROKE. I THINK THAT SUSAN IS THE PROBABLY THE BEST DESICISION THAT I HAVE MADE IN MY SCHOOL YEAR UP TO THIS POINT. I KNOW THAT WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOR A GOOD LONG TIME AND IHOPE THAT SHE FEELS THE SAME WAY ABOUT ME TO. IF YOU ARE READING THIS SUSAN I WANTED TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND I HOPE THAT WONT EVER CHANGE THE WAY YOU ARE AND THE WAY THAT YOU FEEL ABOUT ME TOO. I WILL GIVE YOU MY LOGIN PASSWORD TODAY. I WILL SEE YOU LATER. BYE.
1/2/2007PS: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!:
HELLO AND WELCOME HOME AFTER A PRETTY AVERAGE VACATION. AND AFTER ALL OF THE BULLSHIT THAT I WENT THROUGH I REALLY THINK THAT I WILL HAVE A GOOD MONTH OVERALL. MY VACATION WAS GOOD BECAUSE SUSAN CAME OVER YESTERDAY AND WE HAD A PRETTY GOOD TIME PLAYING HALO 1 ALSO ONE OF THE BEST GAMES OF ALL TIME. THAT AND I GOT ANOTHER X-BOX FOR CHRISTMAS. SO I MIGHT BE ABLE TO BRING THAT X-BOX TO SCHOOL FOR DDR CLUB AND COPY THE FILES. THE ONLY DOWNSIDE IS THAT MY MOM HAS TO GO TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS BECAUSE SHE HAD A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN BECAUSE OF JIM WHO MY SISTER WANTS TO REALY KILL RIGHT NOW. BUT BEFORE THAT HAPPENS WE HAVE TO MOVE OUT. IT IS EITHER WEST MAIN STREET OF EAST MAIN STREET. I DON’T REMEMEBER. I DIDN’T GET TO GO TO LASERUEST ON THE 30TH OF DECEMBER LIKE I HOPED TO DO BECAUSE MY SISTER CARMELA A.K.A. MITA THREW AMONKEY WRECNCH IN MY PLANS SAYING “ THERE ARE TO MANY CRAZY ASS PEOPLE OUTSIDE THIS WEEKEND SO I WILL TAKE YOU AND YOUR CRAZY ASS FIREND TO LASERQUEST ON THE 5TH OF JANUARY AND I WILL PAY FOR THEM, O.K.?” THIS IS CALLED “THE LIFE OF ROBERT ON A BI-WEEKLEY BASIS”. I LIVE IN HELL. SPEAKING OF HELL, SADDAM WAS HUNG BY HIS NECK ON SATURDAY AND IS NOW HOPEFULLY BURNING IN IT RIGHT NOW. ALSO STEPHS B-DAY WAS ON- WAIT ACTUALLY IT WAS YESTERDAY ON THE 1ST. I THINK THAT I WILL KILL SOMEBODY IF I DONT GET OUT OF THIS CLASS I 10 MINUTES. I THINK THAT I WILL GO TO LASERQUEST LATER ON THIS WEEK. NOW 2 MINUTES AND COUNTING. I WILL HAVE TO GO SOON. SO I WILL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/2/2007: HEY I AM BACK AND GUESS WHAT, ETHAN IS GOING AND SO IS STEPH. I JUST HAD TO GET A CONFIRMATION FROM THEMSELVES I REALLY DON’T CARE WHAT THEIR PARENTS SAY ABOUT IT AND STEPHS MOM BETTER GIVE THEM A RIDE THERE AND I WILL HAVE MY SISTER DRIVE THEM HOME. ACTUALLY TO HER HOUSE TO MAKE ONLY ONE TRIP INSTEAD OF 2 JUST TO MAKE MATTERS AND HER LIFE A LITTLE EASIER SO THAT WAY SHE ISNT BITCHING AT EVERYODY CONSTANTLY. I HAD TO GO ONTO [link] OFR A QUICK MINUTE AND SEE IF ANYBODY COULD HAVE MADE MY MUSTANG GT’S. THEY CAN BUT I HAVE TO GET ALL OF THE SPECS FOR THEM BECAUSE THE PICTURE CAME OUT A LITTLE SKETCHEY AND IT WAS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO SEE MOST OF IT. SO I GUESS I HAVE TO PLAY UG2 TODAY AND DO IT AT HOME. AS LONG AS I GET TO TALK TO SUSAN TODAY I’M HAPPY AND I WLL GET IT DONE, HOPEFULLY. HAHAHA. I REALLY DON’T HAVE MUCH TO DO LATELEY BUT WAIT FOR THE DAY OF JUDGEMENT ON FRIDAY WHEN I WHUP ASS IN LASERQUEST AND I KNOCK SUSAN DOWN FRON HER POST AS NUMBER 1. I JUST HOPE THAT I AM IN GOOD ENOUGH CONDITION THAT I WILL GET HER BACK FOR THAT LITTLE STUNT THAT HER AND CHRIS PULLED OF TOADY. I HAVE TO GO. I’LL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/3/2007: THE STUNT THAT THEY PULLED YESTERDAY WAS THAT THEY HANDED IN A NOTE SAYING THAT IT IS MY B-DAY TODAY AND THEY ANNOUNCED IT OVER THE LIUD SPEAKER IN THE MORNRING. I REALLY WAS SORE AFTER THE WHOLE SCHOOL DAY YESTERDAY. I GOT ALL OF MY SPECS FROM “NEED FOR SPEED UNDERGROUND 2” AND POSTED THEM UP ON THE WEBSITE HANFG ON I AM GONNA SIGN OFF AND LOG ON A DIFFERENT COMPUTER.
O.K. I AM BACK. O.K. NOW I AM REALLY BACK.IHAD TOSIGH OFF THE OTHER COMPUTER AND LOG ON TO THIS ONE. I AM NOW LISTINING TO “BAT COUNTRY” AND I AM STILL HURTING FROM YESYERDAY’S PUNCHES FROM EVERYBODY AND SOUHAIR JUST PUCHED ME 17 TIMES AND I REALLY AM GETING SORE AGAIN. I HAVE TO GO SOON AND I AM GETTING EARLY DISMISSAL BECAUSE I HAVE TO GO CHECK OUT AN APARTMENT ON W/MAIN STREET AND I AM PROBABLY GONNA GET CALLED DOWN DURING LUNCH. I GOTTA GO. BYE.
1/4/2007:HEY I AM BACK. I AM IN 6TH PERIOD CLASS: STUDY HALL AND I DIDN’T GET TO HOP ONTO THE COMPUTER IN 2ND PERIOD BECAUSE I HAD TO DO SOME WORK OFR ENGLISH CLASS WITH CLARISSA AND SOUHAIR. NEEDLESS TO SAY I AM STAYING AFTER SCHOOL TODAY FOR DDR CLUB AND I BROUGHT BOTH OF MY X-BOXES TO SCHOOL FOR COPYING FILES INTO THE NEW ONE THAT I GOT FOR X-MAS. AND I HAVE TO PLAY A LITTLE BIT OF HALO 2. YES I BOUHGT IT LAST NIHGT WITH CHIRS AND JASS. I HAD NO OPTION BUT TO BUY IT. I ALMOST DIDN’T FIND IT IN THE STORE BUT THEY HAD ONE AT THE FRONT DESK AND THAT WAS THE ONLY ONE THEY HAD IN THE STORE FOR A WHILE. IT CAME OUT TO ABOUT 28.90 GIVE OR TAKE. I REALLY DON’T CARE ABOUT IT THOUGH. I HOPE TO GET SOME MONEY FROM MY SISTER TOMORROW FOR MY B-DAY PARTY. I HAVE TO PICK UP STEPH AND ETHAN BECAUSE THEY CANT COME ON MY BUS. ACTUALLY STEPH CANT COME ON MY BUS CAUSE HER MOM IS BEING A BITCH ABOUT IT. I DON’T CARE IF HER MOMS VAN BROKE DOWN. IT AINT MY FAULT. SHIT I HAVE TO GET READY FOR DDR CLUB. I WILL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/4/2007: I GUESS I WAS ABLE TO GET A COMPUTER IN THE DDR CLUB AND I DECIDED TO TYPE SOME MORE BEFORE I LEFT THE SCHOOL. I AM WITH SUSAN IN MY PRESENCE ALONG WITH A CLASSROOM FULL OF PEOPLE INCLUDING STEPH, ETHAN, ASHLEY, JAMES, ROBERT WATSON, AND MANY MORE. I AM LISTINING TO EASIER TO RUN BY LINKIN PARK AND IT SEAMS THAT NOBODY CARES ABOUT IT SO I AM GOOD FOR THIS. I HAVE TO BRING BACK BRITANYS DDR PAD TO HER SOMETIME THIS WEEK BECAUSE SHE NEEDS IT. FUCK I AM SO TIRED RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE TO LUG 2 X-BOXES BACK HOME. I HAVE TO GET READY TO GO SOON BECAUSE RAGIS HAS TO GO. ANYWAYS I WILL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/8/2007: HEY I HAVE SOME PRETTY GOOD NEWS: I JUST HAD THE MOST PAINFUL EXPERIENCE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE ASIDE FROM MY HEAD BEING SLAMMED INTO A STOP SIGN POLE, I WAS RUNNING TO MY HOUSE TO GET MY C.D’S FOR MY SISTERS TRUCK TO LISTEN TO ON THE WAY THERE AND SOMEBODY OPENED THEIR DOOR TO THEIR CAR AND I WENT DOWN THE MIDDLE AND MY NUTS WHERE IN PAIN THE ENTIRE DAY WITHOUT QUESTION AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF I COULDN’T RUN IN THE MAZE. I DID HOWEVER HAVE A GOOD TIME HOLDING ONTO SUSAN THE REST OF THE DAY. JUST ME AND HER HOLDING ON TO EACH OTHER…. HUH. OH I WAS JUST DOSING OFF FOR A WHILE. SORRY. I TO GO CHECK ON MY CARS IN NFSUNLIMITED.NET. I REALLY HAVE TO STOP RUNNING INTO CARS BECAUSE IF WHAT HAPPENED ON FRIDAY. NEEDLESS TO SAY I HAD ONE OF THE BEST WEEKENDS OF MY LIFE. I REALLY HAVE TO START WATCHING OUT FOR THINGS LIKE THAT THOUGH. ANYWAYS. I…… SMELL ………… BLACK PEOPLE!!!!!!! I ANY EVENT I AM STILL THINKING ABOUT WHA TTO GET HER FOR VALENTINES DAY. YES I KNOW I STILL HAVE ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF TO GO BUT IT IS BETTER TO BE SAFE THEN SORRY AND TO THINK AHEAD OF TIME IS BETTER THAN THINKING AT THE LAST MINUTE. HOLY SHIT I HAVE TO GET READY TO GO. I WILL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/9/2007: I THINK THAT I MIGHT HAVE STUMPLED UPON SOMETHING THAT WILL MORTIFY MEE FOR THE REST OF MY SCHOOL YEAR. I FOUND OUT OR I THINK THAT KIM LIKES ME. KIM IS A PERSON THAT WAS TRYING TO HELP ME HOOK CHRIS UP WITH ASHLEY. NOW THAT I FOUND OUT OR I THINK THAT KIM LIKES ME I AM ABOUT TO GO BALLISTIC. BECAUSE THE FACT IS THAT I ALREADY NAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND SHE JUST FOUND OUT YESTERDAY. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I HOPE THAT THE THOUGHTS THAT ARE RACING THROUGH MY HEAD ARE INDEED WRONG.. I ILL TALK LATER AFTER LUNCH. BYE.
1/9/2007 pt2: HEY I AM BACK AND I THINK THAT I HAVE TO TAKE PIERRES BIKE HOME TODAY. I HIGHLY DOUBT THAT I AM GOING TO DO SO ANYWAYS BUT I CANT ALSO BECAUSE I HAVE A DENTENTION TODAY FOR 1 OF MY TEACHERS AND I CANT POSTPONE IT ANYMORE. SO I HAVE TO GO STRAIGHT HOME TODAY ANYWAYS BECAUSE I HAVE TO CONTINUE PACKING CAUSE WE ARE MOVING IN A WEEK OR TWO. SO I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO NOT TO TAKE THE JOB. I THINK THAT I WAS WRONG ABOUT KIM LIKING ME AFTER ALL BECAUSE SHE ASKED SOME OTHER KID OUT TODAY. SO I MAY BE WRONG BUT ON THE OTHER HAND I MAY BE RIGHT BECAUSE THIS MAY ONLY BE A TEMPORARY THING. AND I WISH THAT I COULD HAVE KNOWN THIS SOONER SO I COULD HAVE LET HER DOWN EARLIER WITHOUT HURTING HER FEELINGS. SO MAYBE IT MIGHT NOT HAVE DESTROYED MY SCHOOL YEAR, COMPLETELY BUT IT WAS STILL SHOCKING TO THINK THAT AT ALL. I HOPE THAT SHE WILL UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION. LET’S JUST PRAY TO GOD THAT I MAKE IT THROUGH THIS SCHOOL YEAR WITHOUT IT GOING DOWNHILL FOR A LONG TIME ANYMORE. I HAVE TO FIND A FLOPPY DISC TO HOLD THE JOURNAL SO THAT WAY I CAN WORK ON IT AT HOME AND IN THE PRIVACY OF MY OWN ROOM. WITH A DEADBOLT LOCK. I HOPE THAT THIS WILL WORK OUT ALL OF THE SHIT THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH IN THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS ALL OF THE GOD TIMES AND THE BAD TIMES WILL COLLIDE LIKE THE PROPHETS PREDICITIONS THAT WHERE BEFORE US. ……. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT I JUST KNOW THAT ALL OF THE ABOVE WENT TOGETHER PRETTY WELL DON’T YOU THINK? HMM? I HAVE TO GO SOON. I WILL TALK LATER ONCE AGAIN. BYE.
1/10/2007: HOLA AS SUSAN WOULD SAY. ANYWAYS GUESS WHAT? AFTER ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF IT IS FINALLY SNOWING… ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE SCHOOL. I DON’T FUCKIN BELIEVE THIS SHIT. IT IS SNOWING ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE SCHOOL BUT NOT IN THE CENTER OF IT. THIS IS BULLSHIT. FUCKIN JEWS I HATE THIS SHIT. FUCKIN IT’S ABOUT TIME IT STARTED TO SNOW IN THE CENTER OF THE SCHOOL. AND NOW IT STOPS. I THINK THAT THIS IS A SIGN. I KNOW THAT THIS IS A SIGN FROM GOD. WE ARE ALL GONNA DIE!!!!!!! AAAAARRRRREEEEHHHHGGGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHEM. I AM SORRY I HAD TO GET AHOLD OF MYSELF THERE FOR A SECOND. ANYWAYS I ONCE AGAIN HAVE TO GET READY TO GO. I WILL ONCE AGAIN TALK LARER. ONCE AGAIN BYE.
1/10/2007: PT2 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT I JUST FOUND OUT THE BEST NEWS OF THE REST OF MY SCHOOL YEAR. HERE IT IS: I FOUND OUT THAT KIM DOSENT LIKE ME THAT WAY BUT AS ONLY AS A FRIEND. AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF SHE LIKES CASSIDY (CROSSEYED KID). SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE ASKED HIM OUT 2 DAYS AGO ON MONDAY. SHE HASN’T GOTTEN A REPLY BACK YET BUT SHE IS STIL WATING ON IT. NOW I FOUND ALL OF THIS SHIT TODAY AT LUNCH. HERE IS WHERE THE FUN STARTS. WHEN WE GOT BACK TO THE TABLE TODAY TITO WANTS TO KNOW WHAT IT IS. DEANDRE TOLD THE ENTIRE TABLE RIGHT OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY. SHE WANTED IT TO BE ONLY BETWEEN HER, CHRIS, ASHLEY BELO, AND CASSIDY HIMSELF. NOW EVERYBODY KNOWS AND KIM IS PISSED TO ALL HELL. THE REASON WHY IS BECAUSE TITO KNOWS AND HE WANTED REVENGE ON KIM’S FAMILY FOR THE LONGEST AND HE WANTS TO TELL THE REST OF THE SCHOOL NOW WITH HIS BIG ASS MOUTH. NOW SHE DOSENT WANT TITO TO TELL ANYBODY ABOUT IT. HE WANTS TO MAKE HER LIFE A LIVING HELL ALONG WITH THE REST OF HER FAMILY. NOW I TALKED TO KIM DURING LUNCH AFTER SHE TOOK OFF. I TOLD HER I COULD GET TITO TO SHUT HIS MOUTH FOR QUITE A WHILE AND SHE DOSENT CARE NOW. ALL OF A SUDDEN CHRIS SHOWS UP. I TOLD HIM ABOUT MY PLAN TO SHUT HIM UP. I GOT WORD FROM KIM THAT TITO LIKES SUHAIR AND THAT WAS MY INITIAL PLAN TO BEGIN WITH. BUT THERE IS GOING TO BE A CERTAIN TWIST TO THIS STORY. I AM GOING TO TELL THE REST OF THE SCHOOL THA TTITO LIKES HER AND SHE LIKES HIM. NOW I KNOW THAT YOU MAY THINK THAT THIS IS A LITTLE FUCKED UP BEYOND ALL REASON (AKA F.U.B.A.R.D.) BUT I REALLY THINK THAT THIS COULD BE GOOD FOR EVERYBODY. IT DOSENT MATTERI HAVE TO MAKE THIS WORK OU TFOR TITO’S WORST NIGHTMARE I AM THE HELLRAZOR AND NOBODY GETS IN MY WAY OF MY ACHIVEMENTS. NOBODY. IN ANY EVENT I AM REALLY THINKING ABOUT TAKING A VERY LONG VACATION AN DHOPING THAT ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE WHILE I AM STILL HERE. THIS TEACHER IS REALLY PISING ME OFF BECAUSE SHEWNATED TO KNOW WHAT I AM DOING ON THE COMPUTER AND WHY AM I WRITING ABOUT ALL OF THIS AND WHY AM I USING ALL OF THA BAD LANUAGE IN THE AFOREMETIONED PART OF THE DAY AND THE REST ODF THE JOURNAL AND NOW SHE WANTS ME TIO SEE MY GUIDNANCE COUNSLER HERE AT SCHOOL. MAN FUCK THAT SHIT. I DON’T CARE WHAT ANYBODY THINKS ABOUT MY FUCKIN THOUGHTS. I LOVE YOU SUSAN BUT I ONLY WANT TO HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS. HOLY SHIT I HAVE TO GET READY TO GO. ALL HELL IS BREAKING LOOSE DOWN HERE IN THE LIBRARY. I’LL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/11/2007: HEY I HAD SOME CUT OFF POINT YESTERDAY AND I DON’T REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I HAVE A LUMP ON MY HEAD AND I THINK THAT I GOT HIT IN THE HEAD WITH A BASEBALL BAT BY MY NIECE AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT HIT ME. I KNOW THAT I AM NOT GETTING EARLY DISMISSAL TODAY BECAUSE I HAVE DDR CLUB TODAY AND I JUST BECAME A PERMANENT MEMBER ON MONDAY I HAVE THE STRANGEST THOUGHT YESTERDAY YET I CANT REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS. HANG ON I HAVE TO GO DO SOMETHING FOR A QUICK MINUTE… O.K. I AM BACK. I HAD TO RUN TO MY LOCKER TO GET MY C.D. CASE I REALLY DON’T TRUST THIS SCHOOL AND I HAVE NEED FOR SPEED CARBON AND HALO 2 IN THERE. SO THAT’S WHY I YANKED IT OUT OF MY LOCKER. O.K. I AM GETTING READY TO GO SOON. I’LL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/11/2007 PT2: THIS IS GOING TO HELL REALLY QUICKLY AND I CANT STOP IT FROM HAPPENING. I HAD THE BEST LUNCH EVER AND KIM JUST WENT TO SEE MR GRADY HER SCHOOL COUNSLER AND MINE AND SHE WENT TO GET CASSIDY SUSPENDED AND/OR EXPELLED FROM SCHOOL AND POSSIBLY FROM HIS NEXT OE TOO. I JUST CAME BACK FROM MR GRADY’S ROOM ABOUT 15 MINUTES AGO. AND NOW SINCE I AM GETTING REVENGE ON TITO, EVERYBODY IS TRYING TO FUCK EVERYBODY ELSE OVER ROYALY AND THEY EXPECT ME TO BAIL THEM OUT OF THEIR JAM THAT THEY GOT THEMSELVES INTO IN THE FIRST PLACE. I CANT DO THIS SHIT ANYMORE. SUHAIR WANTS ME TO TELL TITO OFF FOR HER, KIM ALMOST HAD CHRIS SUSPENDED FOR SEXUAL HARASSMENT WHEN HE DIDN’T DO ANYTHING AT ALL, I NEED TO TRY TO BAIL A FRIEND OR TWO OUTTA TROUBLE, JUSTIN GOT BE BUZZED YESTERDAY AND I ALMOST GOT CAUGHT RED HANDED, AND MY COUNSLER WANTS ME TO SEE A DOCTOR FOR MY PROBLEMS. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE AND I AM ABOUT TO GO COLUMBINE ON THIS SCHOOL. I CAN NOW LISTEN TO MY MUSIC IN PEACE WITHOUT BEING DISTURBED BY ANYBODY AT ALL. I THOUGHT ABOUT KILLING MYSELF TODAY AND YESTERDAY BECAUSE I WAS UNDER SO MUCH PRESSURE AND I ALMOST KILLED MYSELF FROM MY FUCKIN LIVING ROOM CLOSET. FUCK MAN, OUT OF ALL OF MY FRIENDS ONLY 5 OF THEM CARE ABOUT ME. CHRIS GARCIA, ISAAC GONZALES, CRYSTAL HORTON, KIM KOGUT, AND SUSAN. THAT’S IT. NOBODY ELSE EXCEPT FOR ERICA. I THINK THAT I DON’T BELONG HERE ANYMORE. I MIGHT NOT BE TYPING FOR A WHILE BECAUSE I HAVE TO REFLECT ON THE PAST, THE PERSENT, AND I HAVE TO FOCUS ON THE FUTURE. I WILL TALK LATER AND YES I KNOW IT IS ONLY 1:33 BUT I DON’T CARE. BYE.
1/12/2007: I JUST HAD THE HARDEST MIDTERM FOR MATH EVER. THE LCASS THAT I HAVE NOW IS STUDYHALL AND I EITHER AM ABOUIT TO STAY ON THE COMPUTER OR GO TO SLEEP. I AM GOING TO STAY ON THE FUCKIN COMPUTER. I AM GOING TO SIGN OFF RIGH NOW. I WILL BE BACK ON IN A HALF AN HOUR. BYE. O.K. I AM BACK WAY SOONER THAN EXPECTED ABOUT 2 MINUTES GONE AND I HAVE HAD NO LIFE COME BACK TO ME. SORRY IF THAT DIDN’T MAKE ANY SINCE BUT I AM A LITTLE CRAZY AT THE PRESENT TIME AND PLACE. I HAD ABOUT 5 OR 6 CHANCES YESTERDAY AND I DIDN’T TAKE ONE OF THEM. IF YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT I AM SAYING THAT I HAD 5 OR 6 CHANCES TO KISS SUSAN AND I DIDN’T TAKE 1 OF THEM. I FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT AND A STUPID BASTARD FORNOT ASKING HER “WHY CANT I KISS YOU IN FRONT OF PEOPLE?” AND NEEDLESS TO SAY I THINK THAT I THINK THAT THIS RELATIONSHIP IS GOING SOMEWHERE BUT SLOWLY. AT LEAST THAT’S WHAT I THINK. I JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT SHE THINKS. I REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT SHE THINKS ABOUT IT BUT I DON’T WANT TO SEEM LIKE A JERK ABOUT IT. FUCK I AM BACK IN THIS POSITION. AND I AM BACK IN A MISSION: TO SEE WHAT THE OTHER HALF OF ME THINKS ABOUT THE SITIUATION THAT IM IN. FUCK I HAVE TO TYPE SOME OTHER FUCKIN SHIT. I WILL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/12/2007: IT’S OFFICIAL: I HAVE THE WHOLE WORLD UP MY ASS AND THEIR REALLY PISSED OFF. HERES THE DEAL: TITO GOT THE NOTE FROM 1 OF SUHAIR’S FRIENDS AND TITO WAS BITCHIN ALL THIS MORNING AND INTO LUNCH. TITO WAS TALKING TO ME AND THE KIM POPPED UP OUTTA NOWARE AND TITO WENT OFF ON HER THEN SHE POINTED TO ME OVER MY HEAD. THEN TITO WAS STILL BLAMING HER FOR IT. THEN LENNA A.K.A ANEREXIC WHORE YELLS AT ME AND SAYS “ITS ALL YOUR FAULT YOU WHERE THE ONE THAT STARTED THIS SHIT YOU WENT AND TOLD EVERYBODY AND NOW YOU ARE TRYING TO PLAY INNOCENT” I WENT OFF ON HER AND YELLED AT HER RIGHT BACK. I ALMOST KILLED HER RIGHT AT THE TABLE. I COULDN’T FOCUS. I HAD TO TAKE OFF AND RUN OUT OF THE CAFATERIA. THEN CHRIS SAW ME AND THEN KIM CAME UP BEHIND CHRIS AND SAID “ARE YOU MAD AT ME?” I SAID NO WITH THE BADDEST VOICE AT THE TIME. SHE TRIED TO CALM ME DOWN WITH SOME DEEP BREATHING EXCERISES. THAT SHIT DOSENT WORK AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT I’M ON. IT DOESN’T WORK. I HAD TO GO OUT INTO THE HALLWAY AND TRY TO CALM DOWN OUT THERE. THEN I WENT BACK INTO THE LUNCHROOM AND WAS RIGHT BACK UP TO BEING PISSED OFF AGAIN JUST BECAUSE SUHAIR SAID “DON’T MENTION ME”. I JUST HIT MY REV LIMITER AND WAS DOING BURNOUTS. THE ONLY SONG THAT I AWS THINKING ABPTU AT THE TIME WAS BAT COUNTRY AND THAT WAS IT. I HAD KIM TRY TO CALM ME DOWN ONCE AGAIN. ONCE AGAIN THAT SHIT DIDN’T WORK. SO ONCE AGAIN I WENT INTO THE HALLWAY AND TALKED TO KIM ABOUT ALL OF THE SHIT IN THERE AND SHE SAID DROP IT. I CANT DROP A PROBLEM BECAUSE ONCE I AM IN A PREDICMENT I HAVE TO RESOLVE IT. I HAVE TO GE TREADY TO GO SOON I HAVE TO TALK TO KIM AND TRY NOT TO STRANGLE HER IN THE PROCESS. I WILL TALK ON TUESDAY. BYE.
1/16/2007: HEY I JUST CAME BACK FROM THE NURSE BECAUSE I SLAMMED MY THUMB IN BETWEEN THE CHAIR AND THE FUCKING DESK. I HAVE BEEN REALLY ACCIDENT PRONE LATELEY. I HAD THIS HAPPEN AND TODAY ALONG WITH I FELL IN THE STAIRS AND I SCREWED UP MY ANKLE, BADLY. AND I FUCKED MYSELF UP ALONG WITH SUSAN YESTERDAY IN MY HOUSE WHEN WE WERE TICKLING EACH OTHER I GOT HURT WHEN I HAD MY PRESSURE POINTS PUT TO THE ULTIMATE TEST OF 2 THUMBS ON 1 WRIST. YEAH IT REALLY FUCKIN HURTS AND YOU DON’T KNOW THE REST OF HOW MY WEEKEND WENT. WHEN I GOT HOME ON FRIDAY, YOU KNOW THE DAY THAT I WAS REALLY PISSED OFF, YEAH, DARIN CAME AND PICKED ME UP THAT SAME DAY ABOUT 30 MINUTES AFTER I GOT HOME FROM SCHOOL. SPEAKING OF SCHOOL, ASIDE FROM THE FACT THAT I AM STILL TYPING FROM HERE, BUT KIM JUST HUGGED ME LAST PERIOD FROM PERIOD 5 TO PERIOD 7. I FELT SO… UUUUGGGGHHHH FUCK I CANT EVEN DESCRIBE IT IT SO FUCKIN WRONG. HOLY SHIT. WELL SUSAN IF YOU ARE READING THIS RIGHT NOW. I WAS STIL MORTIFIED ABOUT IT, I WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN MY HEART AND I LOVE YOU TO THE END OF TIME. IF YOU WANT TO KILL KIM, THE GO AHEAD AND DO SO. JUST FIND OUT WHERE SHE LIVES. WE CAN DO IT TOGETHER (NOT LIKE THAT). BTW I HAVE A DOCUMENT ON THE COMPUTER ON THIS FILE OR FOLDER IT HAS ALL OF MY LOGIN PASSWORDS TO ALL OF MY WEBSITES THAT I VISIT FREQUENTLY. I HAVE JUST UPDATED IT WITH THE MOSE RECENT PASSWORDS. HANG ON I HAVE TO CHECK [link] FOR A QUICK MINUTE. PIEASE HOLD… o.k. I got in. now I have to get ready to go. I will talk later. Bye.
1/17/2007: HEY I HAVE A DOUBLE PERIOD 6 TODAY AND THAT MEANS THAT I HAVE STUDYHALL TWICE AS LONG. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I DONT THINK THAT I WILL HAVE THAT MUCH TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT FOR 2 PERIODS. BUT I DID HAVE A VERY ODD PAST 24 HOURS. FOR STARTERS, WHEN I GOT HOME YESTERDAY I SET UP THE DDR MAT BECAUSE I TOOK IT HOME TO PLAY DDR BECAUSE BRITANNY (DARINS SISTER) LET ME BORROW IT. HOPEFULLY FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS. AFTER I GOT DONE PLAYING DDR, I THEN WENT TO NEED FOR SPEED CARBON AND PLAYED THAT FOR ABOUT AN HOUR OR TWO. THEN THAT’S WHERE THINGS STARTED TO GO DOWNHILL. I WAS PLAYING THE CHALLENGE SERIES EVENTS WITH THE PORSHE 91 TURBO RS AND AFTER I GOT DONE WITH IT, THE DAMN GAME FROZE WHILE IT WAS SAVING. SO NOW I HAVE A CORUPPTED DATA FILE AND I HAVE TO START ALL OVER FROM SCRATCH. AND THAT FILE TOK ME ABOUT A WEEK AND A HALF TO GET TO THE PROGRESS THAT I HAVE TODAY. I AM STILL PISSED AT THE DAMN GAME. I AM PROBABLY GOING TO SELL THAT GAME OT SOME POOR SAP FOR ABOUT 30 DOLLARS AND I AM GOING TO BUY NEED FOR SPEED MOST WANTED AGAIN. I REALLY DO MISS THAT GAME. BUT BACK ON TOPIC, I PASSED OUT AFTER I PLAYED CARBON AND AFTER I TRIED TO COPY THE C.D. “ HYBRID THEORY” BY LINKIN PARK INTO MY X-BOX. I WAS AWAKENDED BY MY SISTER AND SHE SAID “ROBERT, WHY DON’T YOU GO LAY ON THE COUCH AND SLEEP?” I SAID SURE NOT KNOWING THAT WAS 1 OF THE WORST MOVES OF THE DAY SINCE I PASSED OUT UNTIL ABOUT 2:30 IN THE MORNING WHILE EVERYBODY IS STILL ASLEEP I COULDN’T GET BACK TO SLEEP AFTER I WOKE UP TODAY. BTW THAT WAS THIS MORNING. I THINK THAT I HAVE A CLOCK INSIDE OF ME THAT GOES OFF ONCE I GET TO 9 HOURS OF SLEEP BECAUSE I CANT GO OVER THAT UNLESS I AM REALLY SICK AND I CANT MOVE THAT MUCH. I FELL ASLEEP FOR ABOUT AN HOUR BEFORE MY ALARM CLOCK WENT OFF. AND I STIL HAD ENOUGH ENERGY TO GET THROUGH THE DAY. I WENT TO (ERICA LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3). O.K. I AM BACK NOT ERICA (SHE DECIDED TO WRITE A LITTLE BIT SO THAT’S O.K. WITH ME. I THINK THAT EVERYBODY CAN DO A LITTLE BIT ON MY JOURNAL. WHATEVER FLOATS THEIR BOAT. I HUST HAD THE BEST DAY SO FAR BECAUSE I WAS TALKING TO LUZ AND SUASN BEFORE PERIOD 1 TODAY AND LUZ STILL DIDN’T TELL ME WHAT SHE SAID TO ME BEFORE 7TH PERIOD YESTERDAY. I FOUND OUT TODAY AND IT WAS THAT SUSAN DOSENT WANT ME TO KISS HER. THIS IS STILL UNKNOWN TO ME TODAY BUT SHE SAID THAT SHE WOULD TELL ME AFTER OUR PERIOD 6 CLASS. WHICH IS NOW. I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS SO BAD ABOUT IT. O.K. IF ONCE AGAIN YOU ARE READING THIS SUSAN I DON’T MEAN TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS BUT IF IT WAS ABOUT A PAST EXPIERNCE GONE WRONG, THEN I DON’T CARE. I DOSENT BOTHER ME IN THE SLIGHTEST. I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT HOW YOU KISS ME. THAT WONT MAKE ME HATE YOU NOR WILL IT MAKE ME STOP LOVING YOU. NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRY TO PISS ME OFF OR HOW MUCH YOU TRY TO MAKE ME HATE YOU OR VICE VERSA. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. BACK ON TOPIC, I KISSED SUSAN TODAY ON THE CHEEK BECAUSE GOING FOR THE LIPS WOULD BE GOING WAY TOO FAST. SHIT I DIDN’T EVEN REALIZE THE TIME. I HAVE TO GO. I WILL TALK LATER. BYE.
1/18/2007: HEY I AM BACK AND I AM IN PERIOD 2 RIGHT NOW AND I REALY FEEL LIKE SHIT BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW WHY. I GOT THE NOTE FROM SUSAN YESTERDAY AND I FOUND OUT WHY IT’S BECAUSE SHE NEVER REALLY HAD A REAL BOYFIREND BEFORE. THERE WAS CHRIS AND THAT NEVER REALLY LEFT SCHOOL AND TO BOTH OF THEM IT FELT PRETTY WEIRD. SO SHE DECIDED TO GO BACK TO BEING FRIENDS AND THAT WAS THAT. I ON THE OTHER HAND AM DIFFERENT BECAUSE AND I QUOTE: ”YOU ARE DIFFERENT YOU ACTUALLY LOVE ME BACK. YOU DON’T CARE ABOUT THE WAY THAT I LOOK OR MY RELIGION (EVEN THOUGH I DON’T HAVE ONE)” SO I FEEL REALLY SPECIAL. OH BY TH E WAY I AM TALKI NG FROM MY PERIOD 7 CLASS IN POWER TECH AND I JUST FINISHED MY MIDTERM AND I AM HERE TALKING TO CRYSTAL AND LISTINING TO KICKSTART MY HEART BY MOTLEY CRUE. I WILL TALK LATER IN DDR. BYE.
1/19/2007: HEY IT’S ME AND THIS IS THE LAST DAY IN PERIOD 2 STUDYHALL AND IT HURTS TO SAY IT BUT I WILL MISS THIS PLACE. I MEAN SURE I WIL BE RID OF MOST OF THE PEOPLE IN HERE. OR I WILL WIND UP SEEING THEM IN GYM ON MONDAYAND I WILL BE EVEN SADDER BECAUSE I WONT HAVE A COMPUTER TO TYPE ON. I MIHGT GO WTH SUSAN TODAY WHEREEVER SHE IS GOING AND THAT WILL HOPEFULLY CURE MY BORDUM OR HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT. I WANT TO GO HOME ALREADY AND I WANT TO GO TO SLEEP AND PASS OUT FROM…. SOMETHING. I REALLY WANT TO GO TO SUSANS HOUSE TODAY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LEAVE CHRIS ALL ALONE WITH DUSTIN…… THAT’S BULLSHIT.OF CORUSE I WANT TO LEAVE THE FAG ALONE WITH HIM. NOT MY FAULT. GODDAMN CUBANS. SORRY THAT WAS REALLY RANDOM AND I NEEDED SOMETHING TO SAY. I HAVE TO GO SOON. I WILL UPDATE IN STUDYHALL. BYE.
1/19/2007: PT2.k. I am on two computers at once and I really have to stop the madness. SORRY I HAD CAPS LOCK OFF. NOW I AM REALLY HERE. I WENT TO THE AUTITORIUM TO SEE SUSAN AND I SAW MEGAN (SHUDDER AT THE THOUGHT) AND SHE WAS THROWIN A FREAKIN BAR AND MOST OF TIME SHE COULDN’T CATCH THE DAMN THING WHEN IT WAS COMING DOWN. HOLD ON I HAVE TO LOG ONTO ANOTHER COMPUTER…..O.K. I AM BACKAND FELING A BIT BETTER BECAUSE I HAVE MY MUSIC. I THINK THAT THE ONLY GOOD NEWS IS THAT I CAN RECORD EVERYTHING AT THE END OF THE DAY ON TUESDAY’S AND THURSDAY’S BECAUSE I HAVE THIS PERIOD LAST. MY SCHDULE IS HARD TO EXPLAIN. SPEAKING OF WHICH, LAST PERIOD I JUST ATE MINE. AND I STILL DON’T FEEL FULL. I NEED MORE FOOD AND WHEN WE GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE FO RTHE WEEKEND I WILL HAVE AN EVEN BETTER TIME. I THINK THAT I WILL ASK SUSAN IF SHE WANTS TO COME OVER MY HOUSE TODAY AFTER SCHOOL. (LONG SIGH) IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHATS WRONG, IT’S THE FACT THAT…HELL I DONT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I KNOW SOMETHING BAD IS GONNA HAPPEN SOON AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT IT IS. ALSO ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT IF ANYHTING HAPPENS, CHRIS AND SUSAN, WHEN YOU ARE READING THIS, IF I AM DEAD, I WANT YOU GUYS TO HAVE MY SYSTEMS. CHRIS YO UGOT THE OLD X-BOX. SUSAN YOU GET THE NEW ONE. I WIL BE WATCHING OVER YOU GUYS AND I WANT YOU GUYS TO ALTERNATE EVERY WEEK. SO GET AS MUCH GAMING IN AS YOU CAN AND DON’T BLOW THEM UP. ALSO CHRIS YOU HAVE TO BE GOOD TO YOUR SISTER AND LET HER PLAY EVERY NOW AND THEN. I WANT YOU, SUSAN TO HAVE MY T.V. ALSO. CHRIS IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE GETTING STUCK WITH THE SHORT END OF THE STICK, YOU ARE WRONG. YOU WILL GET THE STEREO SYSTEM. AND HOPEFULLY IF JUSTIN ISNT OUT BY THEN, YOU CAN BLAST IT IN HIS EARS AND FUCK HIM UP ROYALLY. I HAVE THE STRANGE FEELING THAT I AM GONNA GET FUCKED OVER LATER ON THIS YEAR BY SOMEBODY. I JUST DON’T KNOW WHO IT IS. I HAVE TO GET READY TO GO. I WILL TALK PERIOD 6 ON MONDAY. BYE.
1/22/2007: O.K. I AM BACK ONCE AGAIN BECAUSE DARREL ACCIDENTALLY UNPLUGGED SOME COMPUTERS. NO BIGGIE. I SENT KATIE SOME NOTES OVER DEVIANTART AND I THINK THAT SHE WILL GET THEM IN PERIOD 7. P.S: KATIE, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, GUESS WHAT YOU ARE. A NNNNNNNNNNNNNUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTCCC CCCCCCCCCCCCAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEE EE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SORRY BUT I HAD TO DO THIS.